Everyman's Journal 2011, #4
© 2011 Rev. David Seacord
January 5, 2011
On my knees again, writing. More and more, it's like coming home, or taking a breath of mountain top air....
Climbing to the top of that mountain to get that breath can sometimes leave me out of breath, but I love even that.... the pumping of my heart beating hard, the labored deep intake of my lungs, and the good ache of being well exercised coming from my legs.
Why come? Some might say 'For the view'. I like to think of it as 'For the Visions'. I think that is one of the reasons I kept going back so many years to my Forest Service wilderness fire-lookout jobs--- because during those twenties-something/thirties-something summers of isolated living, there was nothing to stop the natural envisioner in me.... athough it was somewhat the opposite of the normal 'head in the clouds, feet off the ground' experience, simply because the ground was still under me, as the mountain top. And to this day, it is always to a mountaintop that my soul carries me whenever I callout for 'connection'.
In those years, returning to the world with my bundles of dreams and visions was always a shock however. Possibility just started contracting as soon as I came out of the woods. It wasn't the truth, but I didn't know it then. It was just my lack of self-knowledge that allowed the no-possibility conversations of the world to stop me. This truth is everywhere, once we begin the authentic journey. Even the Bible (even?) says it: My People suffer for lack of Knowledge.
To correct our lack of Knowledge is the whole deal. There are many stories, conjectures, theories as to the how and why of this condition (we call them 'religions'), but the one that I find most empowering is that we choose it. What I mean (& paralleling the ACIM teaching) is that somewhere we each chose to forget our connection to The Wholeness (i.e., Godness). [If some of you wonder why I am on occasion redundant, it's because I am being responsible for new readers.] The Good News is of course, it is totally possible to re-remember. And that path and process returns us to our natural and native power... the power we were endowed with at our creation by, as the Declaration of Independence says..."Nature's God'.
For me, 'taking my power back' has been a long haul lesson, often needing a good amount of external encouragement and support from others. I know many people that are like me in this. Yet I have always known that within me lived a much more courageous being than was visible from my actions. Today I discovered a crack into that courage, and discovered an increase in my happiness as a result....
The trigger that started this story was yesterdays Journal, and the place writing it took me. By daylight, I was deep into envisioning, and had starting a sheet of notes titled "Things I could do to help end ocean polluting". We're not going there right now, but just that I was thinking in the frame of 'what I could do' is my point. Because around the corner I drove, and encountered (for the umpteenth time in the last 6 weeks) a particular intersection that had been redone, including a change of how the turn lanes worked. That change had screwed everything up terribly, but nobody must have complained (even though a traffic safety hazard had clearly been created by it).
In that instant, I chose to DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. It was something real, it wasn't working, a dangerous situation existed, and it was in me that I COULD 'make a difference'. I went home, got on the phone, and became a force to be reckoned with. In other words, I intended to get something done. Politely, clearly, and with no making-wrong, I delivered the message: There's been a mistake in lane marking a certain intersection, and if a party of authority does not act quickly to correctly alter this intersection, there will be accidents. The lane markings do not work as is.... (and then I explained why etc). Where I had to leave messages, I left messages, including my name and phone, and requesting a call back.
It really didn't take much time, maybe an hour at most, from the time I started making calls to actually meeting with the two supervisory and safety specialists at the intersection. They had not known about the situation, and it was clear they saw the problem (and the danger) exactly as I did. They thanked me for calling it to their attention, and promised me that it would be corrected 'Right away!" "Great! It's all yours..." I said as I shook their hands and headed for exiting.
As I got into my car, a wave of old emotion broke over me, and I whooooped! a real loud YES!!!!.... then I shook a while. And while still shaking, I hear myself wondering..."what is this... these feelings".
You know, don't you? They were the feeling of recovering lost power. They were the healing of the many times we/I have violated the True Self of Us/Myself, submitting to being told we/I 'can't do/be like/ have' that which we/I knew was right.... They were a release of the suppression, and a stepping up to a new freedom to be.
We each have our knowing of what is right. In many ways it is inbred biologically. Like we know it is right to be warm, not cold, or we know it is right to be together, not alone (particularly as a baby). We know it is right to have food, and not be hungry, and to be loved, not rejected. Really, it is this primal. So was my shaking. I think it was a shaking off of a lot of Gulliver's-like threads that bind and blind. Time will tell, but for now, this I know...
Because of an ounce of foresight combined with a willingness to act, today began the ending of a danger that eventually would have caught someone's life in it's net, at a probable high cost. And my life re-learned it can make a difference even though there is 'nothing to show' for it.
Ultimately however, we set down all our trophies and prizes, and walk through our 'star-gate'. All we can take with us is who we have become...who it is clear that we are, even with 'nothing to show'. Let us then, wisely use our time together to remember our true and perfect nature. I can see no greater wealth.
Namaste,
David
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Rev. David Seacord
Fine Art Painter / Sufi Cherag
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