Everyman's Journal 2011, #47
© 2011 Rev. David Seacord
March 27
I come out of the motel to get something in my car, and it is gone. It is lightly raining (strange, in this desert)... I do a quick body spin to double-check reality.... yes, it is GONE. A panic begins to rise in my mind... trying to grasp what I have lost.... what was left in the car... what is in the motel (and safe)... I start to run into the rain after my vanished automobile.... I round the corner at the end of the motel and see the large supermarket parking lot ahead.... suddenly on the far side of it I see my car, with somebody in it, rifling through it.... I force my not young body into a full, flat out, hard run... my car-napper sees me coming and abandons the car, running away. My lungs labor and my knees protest as I try to close the distance, but I cannot seem to gain on him, escaping with my valuable possessions... I scream at him my rage at his violation!!!!! He smiles back at me, and suddenly, I wake up, sweating and exhausted.
I lay in bed, watching my breathing and my mind, as my heartbeat gradually slows. Suddenly Gollum, the pathetically lost, consumed-with-dark-Ring of Power-lust character of The Lord of the Rings Trilogy arises in my mind... I hear him mourning, calling for his 'Precious', My Precious, for whom he would do ANYTHING. My synapses fire, and I see Connection.... like for Gollum the Ring, so for me 'my possessions... my money, my thoughts, my relationships'. I don't wish to see, to believe it.... I want to deny he and I are alike in any way. But I cannot, for I am one who was once anointed Everyman, and I live with the Knowledge that all that IS anywhere is also in me somewhere.
The Tolkien Trilogy suddenly opens to my seeing newly... no longer as a mythic adventure, it is now a clear allegory of the personal battle we each do to awaken ourselves, to break the mind-binding hypnotic bonds of the Ring... of our own illusionary-creating ego-nature... all identity-based in the spell of 'an individually separate reality'. I was amazed I could have ever forgotten what is so self-obvious, yet obviously, I had, and not just once, but time and time and time again....
Large wings flapped and landed in the branches of the tree that shades the skylight above my sleeping loft, capturing my attention, as if with another message. It has been quite windy for several days, and bushels of last years dry leaves had been stripped by that wind from her branches (to eventually be swept up and added to my humus-building compost pile).... so at first I was looking at what I thought were bare branches.... then something helped me refocus... and now, what I saw instead, was that all the branches were anything but bare.... in fact, they were absolutely LOADED everywhere with very tiny new leaves just budding!
That message connected too.... that there is a time and a rhythm that is everywhere in life, in yours absolutely, and in mine too. That I forget is one part, that I remember is my forgettings fulfillment partner. That like a wave is to the ocean or death is to birth, the eternal true nature of life is the only context that the individual self can exist within. And that nature is always and absolutely WHOLE.
Where can a world of perfect Love arise from? Only from such wholeness. To embrace our wholeness is therefore the only denial of our separate identities that is necessary, for we then embrace, with deep and mature responsibility, that we are 'the hands of God'.
Understanding this is so, let us free ourselves by choosing to release our personal fears of awakening, and in reverence and wisdom 'place our future in the Hands of God'. Truly, if seen correctly, we already have.
Namaste,
David
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Rev. David Seacord
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