Everyman's Journal 2011, #34

© 2011 Rev. David Seacord

Feb. 17

"I could just stop," I realized, even though I didn't take the thought seriously... It was a strange thought though, because it wasn't about something insignificant.... it was about writing this Journal, this 'sequel' to last years Commentaries. "How many days has it been since I last wrote, I wondered?" I had to stop what I was doing and go check... right, as Saturday the 12th was the last entry, five days have passed. That was never the plan.... yet, while each day had had plenty of material to create from, something in me just had nothing to say.... or make better said... no need to say it.

I remember reading something Richard Bach (author of Jonathon Livingston Seagull and Illusions, the Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah) wrote about writing. He said he only wrote when the idea that needed to be expressed literally grabbed him by the throat and compelled his hand to the pen... then he would write. So thousands and thousands of good ideas just fell back into the nothingness, like waves back into the sea. And like Richard Bach, I've just been letting all the Journal entries that could have been fall back into the sea. It breaks up something in me I can't see too well yet....

And in the space that has opened up, more meditation has happened, which is a good thing. And also, more inner quietness, and more singing in the heart. So I just thought I'd let you know that nothing is wrong.... it's actually all very good.... I'm just not writing as much right now.

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A little confession.... I also watched a movie the other night..... "Ever After" starring Drew Barrymore. Loved it....it's a very sweet remake of the Cinderella story, with a memorable final voice-over line.... "it is not so much that they lived happily ever after... it is simply THAT THEYLIVED!"

Allowing a movie can be "a form of the guru"... so I've been pondering that.... questioning 'what is really living?' It seems a better question when I let it have any of a thousand answers. And then look closely at each of them. For some answers may be temporary, and some may be relative, but all are gifts which lead toward becoming someone with a quiet heart and a 'beginner's mind'.

All is well. I'll write again soon. 'Til then, live well.

Namaste,

David